today i learned about resilience

Yesterday I was a baby! It was cold. I didn’t want to run. I was unhappy with myself and my lack of ability. I let things get to me and saw myself in a less then deserving light. “I can’t” crept back in to my vocabulary. Lucky for me, I have some wonderful people in my life. You will hear about them from time to time.

The first one would be my husband Dana. He supports me with my running. He encourages me and believes in my goals. He has been sympethetic with my eating and knows when to back off. he is gentle and kind.

Michelle is another person that I feel very lucky to have as a friend. I had a talk with her last night and we made a plan. Well it was my plan but she encouraged me on my way. And that was to run 12 miles this morning. Now 12 miles to her and 12 miles to me are very different things. But still, she encouraged me and gave me that little nudge that I needed to get up and get it done. And after I was finished I was to report back to her. How fun it is to receive a voice messages from her telling me that I am going to rock States in June. Michelle believes in me.

Jeff is a great sounding board and always encouraging. He has a very gentle nature and has a way of looking at what I think are my short comings and turning them into a strength. I have appreciated his friendship this past year.

Below you will find an exert from an email that I received this morning. It comes from my good friend George. He sees more in me then I see in myself.

Resilience, bouncing back
The power to bounce back from disaster is called
resilience (or anything bad or troublesome) By actual
definition, it is "the human ability to adapt in the
face of tragedy, trauma.. and ongoing significant life
stressors.
At one time it was thought that some people were born
with resilience and others were not. That wasn’t true.
Researchers at Wayne State University say we are all
born with a tendency to be resilient. Most people are
stronger than they give themselves credit for.
You don’t have to get
caught in a hurricane or suffer a tragedy to develop
resilience. Work, family, lack of sleep, whatever your
situation, it comes from the belief that you can and
will create positive outcomes.

Thank you George for that. It really helped me pick myself up this morning and complete a solid 12 mile run. As slow as it was, I did get it done.

I misjudged my time today by a bit. I left just after 9:00 and needed to get Tucker to his practice at 11:45. normally that would not have been a problem. Somewhere along the line, I ate up some time. Was I moving that slow? It doesn’t matter. With just under 2 miles left I was really pressed for time and knew that I needed to turn it up a bit in order to get him to practice on time. I know how important this is to him, and I did not want to let him down. I could have called him and told him to hop on his bike or to grab a ride with one of his team mates. But I wanted to take him. In a way it was a gesture of love that a mother has for her son. He will never know or understand my feelings of this morning, but I had to get it done for him. And I did. Just in time too. What a feeling of satisfaction that gave me, to finish 12 miles strong and feeling capable. I was able to call my husband, Michelle, George and Jeff who each in their special way made me feel like a winner. Or like Michelle would say “like a rock star!”

I had just enough time for a quick shower and then it was time for pilates. When all was said and done, I really felt great about what I was able to accomplish today. It’s hard being at the bottom of the mountain looking up. Right now the view is overwhelming. I am terrified! But I appreciate the help from my friends so incredibly much.

resilience, it is a choice that i must make every day. without resilience i have no chance at achieving a positive outcome. and that my friends would be the finish line in Auburn!