my thoughts on "Standing Out"

my friend told me that my blog was, well a bit boring. so i thought that i would spice things up a bit and let you know how my leg has been doing.

i have gotten much advice on wound care. for instance my friend andy told me that i needed to take a brillo pad and some rubbing alcohol and give it a good scrubbing. hmmm, i passed on that one! gabor told me to use vitamin E. might be a good idea to let it scab over first. i will try it again. i am able to run on it with no trouble. my back is what has been getting me down. i completely took wednesday off and felt much better this morning. i did a nice 6 miles and mixed in some power walking up Clinton Keith. i also put in an hour of pilates. if my back holds up i should be ready to go for the Twin Peaks 50/50 this weekend. i will be running the 50K. http://twinpeakstrailmarathon.com/

i am tired of coming in last or nearly last. i keep telling myself that it does not matter at this point where i come in . it only matters that i put in my time. i will work on getting my speed back later. i need to focus on building slow and steady and in the right order. as the months roll on i am hoping to stand out. not in the front and not in the back but just to stand out and finish each race as if i am a pendulum ticking away the seconds until the start of the Western States Endurance Run starting on saturday, june 23; where i will be ready and willing to cover all 100 miles with confidence in myself. here is a song that has meaning to me. it's the kind of song that can keep one going. never mind that it's a Disney song...i like it anyway!

Stand out by Tevin Campbell

Open up your eyes
Take a look at me
Get the picture fixed
In your memory 
I’m driven by the rhythm 
Like the beat of a heart
And I won’t stop until I start
To stand out
To stand out

Some people settle for the typical thing
Living all their lives waiting in the wings
It aint a question of if
Just a matter of time
Before I move to the front of the line

And once you’re watching every move that I make
You gotta believe that I got what it takes

Chorus:
To stand out
Above the crowd
Even if I gotta shout out loud
So mine is the only face you'll see
Gonna stand out
Till you notice me

i want to stand out! i want to train hard with my training partner! i want to make it to that finish line! i want to see my family and friends waiting for me! i want to stand out for all of them! and when they leave that day, it will be said that "she worked really hard for that!"

some things just don't come easily!